Thursday, July 17, 2003 @ 03:42am | Entry no.261 | Sheesh, one of the questions on a test on TheSpark.com ||   mood    bored   || ||   music    "new beginnings" _ finch   || Have you ever quizzed a guy to see if he knew your name? And unfortunately, I have. I've asked Chadwick if he knew my name, and thankfully he did, because otherwise I would have jumped the kid, because I talked to him every day for over a year. Haha, I remembered when we first started talking to each other, I could never remember his name, and rather than ask for it and be a complete idiot, I had my little sister do it. I guess it was easy for him to remember my name from the beginning because my original SN had my name in it. Let's see... another time, I've had to ask that that question it was directed towards my Shawnie. Ooh, I got mad at him, because he forgot, despite the lengthy daily phone calls and emails. Turns out he forgot my name, and just took to calling me "hun", [which is where I got it from, if everyone wonders why I call them hun] Granted, it was way before his marriage proposal, and when I moved in with him for a little while [yep, I was engaged for a little while, shhh, you don't know about that], but still, he forgot it. I made sure he remembered it after a while though. I still feel like calling him up and bothering him, but it's been a year or so since I've last talked to him. Jeez, I do that a lot. I stop talking for people for long periods of time, but I still get the urge to call them up and see how they're doing. Just because we're not together anymore doesn't mean that I stopped caring. That holds true with everyone else too. So if any of you people who are reading this, are also people who I haven't talked to in a while, know that I miss you and still think of you, even though it may not seem it. I had a nice little convo with my Chadwick. I miss him like crazy, and I wish I could go see him again sometime soon, because it has been ages since I get to talk to him and even longer since I've seen him. I love him so. ((smiles)) ( convo with my chadwick ) We're starting to fall back into the whole routine of things... and it just has to happen when my sweetie was away. What does that tell me? In order to have a fully functional friendship with my Chadwick, I have to get rid of my sweetie. Uh, that aspect doesn't really thrill me. I'll figure something out. I don't know if I mentioned it or not, but I've decided not to go to Canada, but during that week, I'll probably be down Jersey to help out my mum with things, so I might not get to post for a little while, [if that does wind up to be the case] but, I'll probably write down what I'm thinking each day, and then transfer it over in blurty when I get the chance. I'll probably drive myself insane over there, because there's going to be a lack of internet, since I switched the AOL plan over, and my mom took out the DSL There's going to be some major withdrawl. Hopefully, I can just get people to call me, but with 12+ hour days at work, I already have a feeling I'll be completely exhausted. Oh! And since my mom lives about 10 minutes from Seaside Heights, during my week there, I asked my sweetie if he wanted to come sleep over there and the day after, we'd hit the beach. I just mostly want to run around on the Boardwalk. I love the boardwalks, they're so much fun, and oh my goodness. It's not summer until you have a candy apple, with cotton candy and fries. Haha. I remember heading down the shore with so many different people, and it's always the same story with everyone of them. Everyone has to pig out on the food there. I guess it's the air down there. Oh! Funnelcake! I forgot all about that. Ah! And the rides. Goodness. I need to drag more people to go down to the shore, I mean, heck, mummy dearest lives 10 minutes from there, they can all just crash over there. Hopefully this year, the people'll stop being so damned lazy to drive the 90 minutes it takes to get here. Oh, I just remembered another plus side if I do go down to Jersey next week, I'd earn a few hundred dollars really quickly. And I need the extra funds pretty badly, because heck, I want to go have fun this summer! Damn, I really wish more of my friends were willing to go to the shore... the lazy bastards. Anyways. I've got things to occupy my time now, so I'm going to end this here. <33 toodles. unburden your soul  ( memory/edit )